How I got here

So, I'm a lil behind on this but I wasn't sure i wanted to blog or keep a journal that was so public.
Well, yesterday 8-6-11 i made a life changing decision and made it public by posting ..."Today is the day! Some people say it's hard to stop something, for me it's hard to Start. But TODAY I am putting that behind me, today I do something for me! For a while now it's been a battle that I have let beat me... I am taking control now... I will not fail this time for I have Faith in me for the first time in a long time. And I have a husband, that supports me and a son to be healthy for ♥"
I found tons of support from friends and family as i posted this and also a lil bit more of a drive in me to keep with it to prove to others that i can.

Just a lil background info on me to get started... i haven't always been overweight. when i was in high school i played softball and was on the swim team, i was fit. I went to college did the whole freshman 15-20 but soon lost that too by joining the Cheerleading team. With practice 2 times a day and mandatory gym time it kept me active, besides walking across campus a million times a day to and from classes, practice, gym, and meetings. i felt good about myself then i was happy! Soon i left that university and went to a diff college and continued to stay in shape to attain my goal of becoming a  firefighter medic. i received my degree in emergency medical services and was to start the academy in March. While working in Dec the yr previous i tore my rotator cuff and surgery was not scheduled till April... therefore kissing the academy good bye. My dreams crushed. I didn't study as i shoulda coulda woulda for my state medic exams. so there i sat an EMT working for a private company. Bleh not what i wanted. Quickly moving on Changed jobs, moved to PSL with that Job left that job and now working as a 911 dispatcher for the past 2 yrs.
I'm sure as you can imagine from the disappointment of surgery and losing out on the dreams depression hit me like a wall. i fought that wall with FOOD. yes guilty as charged i found happiness and strength and about an extra 80 plus lbs in food.
I tried and failed may times to lose the weight and for a while i had lost about 45-50 lbs and left good and then i was blessed with news of my son. Dr told me no need to diet and that  was one bit of info i should have ignored. well i gained it back with a few to spare.
Here were are nearly 7 months after my son was born and I'm an unhappy 246 lbs
Time for a change.